If anything happens... I'm probably going to be scared to fall in love again.

Give me a few years and I might try to do it again... but after a relationship like this.. it's gonna take some time to heal and truly get over all of it.  It would be unfair to the next guy... I don't want a rebound.

God, please stand with me throughout this obstacle that's coming my way.  On days when I can't walk anymore, I hope that you can carry me as I cry on your shoulders.  I'm putting all of my trust in you Lord. Please take me to where you feel I should be.  Thank you for everything that you've done for me and for loving me.  I don't deserve anything that you've given me.  So thank you from the bottom of my heart, thank you. Amen.